Remember Me

Which God you worship ?

You are asking me?

Who else is in the room?

No one sir…

Then whom do you think I am asking this question for?

Me sir…

Then tell me which God you worship ?

Goddess Kali Sir…

Do you have any special reason for that?


I’m asking you, do you have any special reason for worshipping Kali ?

Nothing specific, she is my preference..

What you think you get worshipping her?

Do I need to answer this question?

I wish you do..

Okay sir, I feel I get strength which I require and most importantly,  when I worship her and go to sleep, I don’t get bad dreams..

Bad dreams??

Yeah, Bad Dreams.. don’t you get bad dreams?

I do, Infact, I only get that...but what kind of bad dreams you get?

I see Dead people in my dreams…

So do you think I might come in your dreams?

You aren’t dead…

But I can be...

Then you may come..

What do you think I would do in your dreams?

Sir, can I have some water…

You can reply to this question and then take water.. tell me, what do you think I would do in your dreams?

Generally I see dead people holding my neck tightly and I feel difficult to breath…

So you think I would kill you in your dreams?

I generally feel I am close to death when it happens in my dream…

Then what happens?

Fortunately, I wake up from that bad dream before I die… (chuckles)

So you don’t get dreams now?

Who said?

You said…

When?

You said, you worship Kali so you don’t get bad dreams?

But I still get..

So Kali is not helping you…

Sir, please don’t talk like that.. She is my Goddess..

What kind of Goddess you have who doesn’t help you but still you keep worshipping her ?

Stop it… I am leaving..

Sit.. I will not ask that question again..

But I want to answer..

I am not interested to listen..

God only gives what you deserve and not what you want.. she thinks I deserve these bad dreams.. but I am sure by my sincere worship, one day she will help me to come out of these bad dreams…

Why you think you deserve these bad dreams?

I am a evil…

Why so ?

Can I know why you wanted to speak with me?

Why can’t I talk to you?

You have better people to talk…

Like?

Like your sister, your mother or your dear one..

You mean my wife..?

I know you are not married, but you might have a girlfriend…

I don’t have any…

If you had, you wouldn’t be here…

What do you mean?

Nothing sir,  but tell me why you didn’t wanted to meet them?

I don’t have time…

You had it before…

But I am not interested to see them…  in your language, I don’t deserve to see them… (chuckles)

But you never know… they might still think you deserve their kindness..

May be… but I wanted to spend some time with you…

Hahaha.. With me.. it’s quite strange, no body has called me before like this..

That’s why I called you…

Reason ?

To know few facts ?

What?

Have you read the novel “Ponniyin Selvan” ?

What?

Ponniyin Selvan  - The son of River Ponni…

I have read it when I used to enjoy nature…

You mean many years back?

Yes…

You don’t enjoy the nature any more?

I have become old..

So old people don’t enjoy nature?

That’s not what you wanted to know..

Ya.. sorry for changing the topic..  have you read it?

Yes I did..

Can you tell me the story?

Are you crazy or what? You wanted to know the story of Ponniyin Selvan Novel? (laughs loudly)

Stop laughing, I wanted to know the story of it?

Are you serious? Why are you so interested?

I heard it’s the novel which one should have read for sure atleast once in their lifetime? Is it true?

I don’t know what other’s say, but yes, it’s one of the best written novel..

So can you tell me the story?

Are you mad? It’s a 5 volume book, running to 2500 pages.. how can I tell you the story now? I don’t think I have that much time to spend here…

Do you have time to listen to Ramayana & Mahabharatam?

I don’t want to talk to you…

Wait listen, I can tell you in a minute…

How?

One Lady Cried, that become Ramayanam… and one Lady laughed, that become Mahabharatham…

Nonsense.. I don’t know if you are pulling my leg… I am not a scholar like you to tell Ponniyin Selvan like that…

Please..

Sorry sir, I can’t help you.. I am leaving..

Wait..wait..sorry,sorry… I thought of having some fun atleast now.. but you are not co-operating… I would leave you soon but please help me in answering few questions...

Ask soon, I have to go home…

Have you made my drop ready ?

…..

Sir, I am asking you a question? Have you made my drop ready?

Yes sir, it is ready…

Will it withstand my weight?

Yes, it should for certain. We prepare it with utmost care according to doctor prescription. Didn’t the doctor visited you 4 days back?

Yes he did (chuckles).. So what is the length?

7 feet 8 inches exactly sir..

Wow.. I am surprised with the amount of calculation beyond it.. you should be an expert by now..

If I knew that I would be the expert of this sort, I would have asked my mother to kill me even before my birth..

Don’t be too complaining… You are doing a righteous job.. So has it been tested?

Yeah, we did it today evening…

What you did ?

We tested your rope by suspending from it a sack of clay equal to one and a half times of your weight. The sack is dropped for the exact distance of the final drop. We actually do Mock hangings three or four times before the actual hanging...

Are you supposed to do that?

Yes, it’s in the process, we had to do these testing so that…

So that it doesn’t become a disaster..Ah.. hahaha (laughs loudly), It would be intersting to see how it works, so can I call my friend to be present?

What cruel person you are? .. it’s not allowed…

So nobody would be present there except you?

There will be armed guards, few constables and few senior officials and doctors, that’s it…and if you wish we can arrange for any religious priest for any formalities…

Ah, I don’t believe in that.. not required..  but I would be interested to see you guys reaction… you would be quite happy to do this work, don’t you?

I have already answered to this question, moreover, you will not be allowed to see anything there, your face would be covered…

Oh god, what a tragedy, I can’t see my last visitors..  so what you do after you cover my face?

Hmm… do you really want to know it?

Yes, that’s why I had my last wish to see you who exactly knows how to kill me … hahaha…

Okay listen, I don’t want to deprive you from knowing the truth which is your last wish… we would first place you exactly under the part of the beam to which the rope is attached,  and then strap your hand tightly, and further put the noose round the neck tightly, the knot or metal eye being just in front of and below the angle of the jaw, so as to run up behind the ear when you actually fall and receives the jerk.

Oh wow, what a beauty.. then ?

We take enough care to adjust the rope so that the part to which the metal eye belongs shall pass in front of the throat. The noose would be kept tight, having been adjusted by means of a stiff leather washer on the rope. The flap of the cap should hang in front free from the rope.

Oh it would take more time …?

Nope, we have to do all these checks and settings as quickly as possible, we are not allowed to make you wait and it’s against the process…

Quick Death.. Ah… hahaha.. then ?

We wait for the final signal…

That’s the moment of truth of this life isn’t it… Great.. I don’t remember my moment of birth, but I can certainly remember all the minutes, seconds of my death process…

....

So you keep me hanging like that for ever?

We have to keep you remain like that for half an hour and we would put you down only after the medical officer certifies that your life is extinct

Hahah.. I’m the most deprived person on the earth, who is interested to know how his death gonna be conducted…

May be .. but you are also very lucky sir…

Me.. hahah.. are you kidding, you are going to hang me tomorrow and you say I’m lucky? Reason?

Simple, you know your death before, but I don’t know when it’s coming for me…

Can I have Hyderabadi Biriyani before my death? I haven’t had it for quite some time…

You would be provided with a Tea, but I don’t think you would be feeded more.. If you want, I can check with my seniors and arrange for it tonight…

Ya please.. Is the gallows far away from here?

It’s 20 feet long from here… but it’s the most sorrow sight I can imagine…                  

Why so?

Usually the face is hooded and hands tied behind. Though it is only a minutes walk, but the convicts are usually paralysed with fear and the last walk is a sorry one.

You see how I walk tomorrow… it would be the most royal walk you have ever watched in your life.. hahaha…

I can’t laugh now sir…. can I go ?

One last question, does it pain much (sobs a bit…)

Sir, the job is an art, The noose has five knots. The preparation of the knot is so important for us. The person will feel less pain if the knots are right. If the man is heavy, you need fewer knots. If he is light, you need more knots. If the pull is too hard, the head can be even severed and he can bleed from the mouth and nose.

Oh God…

Yeah… So, the pull has to be of a force that kills the person and yet causes no pain

What a science involved in even killing… Absolutely marvelous…

Yeah, we even tie their legs and hands and hold him upright in case he faints in the face of death.. and from the look of it, I don’t think you are going to faint…

Why you say so?

Otherwise how in the world, the last day before your life in this earth gonna end, instead of your family members you wished to see the person who is going to hang you …

Yeah, you may find it strange, but I wanted to know all this information, otherwise the fear itself will kill me… now I can atleast sleep in peace knowing that the person who is going to kill me will take enough care of my death process… what you say?

Sir, I don't know what to say, but I can say onething for sure… 

What?

Tonight, you are definitely going to come in my dreams…

Hahah… bad dreams Ah!... Don’t worry, worship your Kali before you sleep tonight, she will protect you from me in the night…

I don’t have any other options sir, I don’t know what harm I did in my last life, I am leading a life of a Hangmen…  Good Night Sir…

Don’t call me Sir… You are now my friend… By the way, Will you be my friend? I don’t remember having good friends…

Sir… I…

I know, you can't talk further… leave it. Anyway, Thank you very much for accepting to meet me. I really  wondered what can be my last wish? to see my mother or to see the seashore or  how about a movie of my favourite star? Like this, I had so many crazy thoughts which I would like to do for one last time... But later I found it to be of no use, What difference it would make tell me in achieving any of these tasks? May be some momentary satisfaction. But it would not help me. I don't want that. What I need now is a sound sleep tonight and the only person who can give me that is you the Hangman, so I called you...Sorry, if I have harassed you by my questions.. but i would be ever thankful for spending the time with me...

Sir, I don't know what to say.. but I would remember this day for sure... And I can tell you that never in my life i would again accept to meet a prisoner who would be hanged by me in the next day....

Hahaha... I would also never ever forget you my friend, since I only have a night to remember you...  You can leave now, and yes, Just don’t forget to ask your seniors about my Hyderabadi Biriyani… I feel like tasting it tonight..  I don’t have another chance you see..

Ye... Yes Sir...  I will try my best... Good Night Sir..

Good Night my Friend, Have a Sweet Dream Tonight…

(Next Day)

Execution Report

“I hereby certify the sentence of death passed on 12th August  2010 by the Court of Sessions and confirmed by the High Court, has been duly executed and the said Kasab Khan was hanged by the neck until he was dead at Mumbai, Tihar Jail.

Signed

Medical Officer

Cinderella's Angel

This story is about a little kid Cinderella who is with full of energy & zeal on earth. Her mother used to think that she is a real angel born in her family and hence kept her name as Cinderella. She is one of the most loved one’s in their family and she loves pets & stories. She makes it a point to sleep in the night only after hearing fairy tale stories from her mom. Her mother also tells her whatever fairy tale stories that she knew so that she can make her daughter Cinderella happy. And on One Day...

thus the princess ever lived happily with the prince for years”… That’s it my child.. You go to sleep now…

Oh no, mamma the story ended so soon …

Cinderella.. A Story has to end where it is suppose to …!

But you didn’t tell me what happened to that Angel who gave the boons to the princess to save the prince from the witches...

Angel don’t come often Cinderella... They only come when they are required and only to those who are their favourites…

Is that so? So mommy, Am I a favourite to the Angels ?

Of course Cinderella! You are the darling and all angels would surely love you...

So when can I see my Angel ?

It’s already past 10’ , go to sleep now…

No mommy, tell me when can I see my Angel?

You have to pray for that? Pray sincerely and then go to sleep... who knows you may see your Angel..

Okay mommy, I will do it right now.. “Oh Angel, please come.. I want to see you… Give me a boon to get chocolates whenever I want.. my mommy doesn’t give me more than 1 a week… “ please come.. mamma.. Is this enough?

More than enough... now go to bed… Angels don’t like kids who don’t hear their mother’s... so go and sleep... You will find your Angel soon…

****

Cinderella... Cinderella... Get up my child…

Mommy… some more time… it isn’t morning yet, still its dark outside you see…

Cinderella.. I’m not your mother, wake up and see … I am your Angel... See I came since you called me.. I will go if you don’t wake up then…

Oh Wait Wait… wow... Are you really my Angel?

Yes dear… tell me why you called me?

Why I called you? Ah... Yes… to get chocolates…

Chocolates are so easy to get, ask for something else Cinderella... I will grant you for sure...

I don’t want anything else... I want only chocolates… Please give me those … Please…

Ok, you are really my favorite... So instead of just chocolates I will give you a Pen… Take it..

Oh no... This is my Pen...Why are you giving my own Pen & What will I do with this pen ?

My Dear... This was an ordinary pen before… but now this is a magic pen...

Magic pen? What does it do?

You write anything that you want in this pen, you will get it... But whenever you write you should write with a task which should be useful for others .. for example, "I will get this if that event happens"...and remember you should be there to witness the event otherwise this magic pen will become an ordinary pen for ever and you will not get what you wanted …

What is this task? I am not able to understand...

What you wanted now?

Chocolate..!

Write “I will get 2 chocolates if I can arrange these scattered toys neatly in the cupboard”...

Will it happen?

Write down and test yourself…

Okay… “I will get 2 chocolates if I can arrange these scattered toys neatly in the cupboard”

……

Okay now I have finished arranging all my toys neatly... Where is my chocolate.?. .. Angel... Angel!!! Where are you? Angel... Oh you have gone... so this is all a dream? Oh no... I was dreaming all this while.. so sad.. I didn’t’ see my angel then… OOO!!.. what is that under the Pillow… two lovely chocolates .. Hope I am not dreaming... let me pinch myself and test it.. Ahhh… it is paining... so this is real... the pen I am holding is real... My Angel is real then... Thank you Angel… Thank you very much…

****

Mommy... can I help you in cleaning this vessel?

Oh what a surprise? How come you had a concern today to help me?

Because I will get a toy...

What?

No, I said, if I help you, you will be pleased then so that you will gift me a toy, right..

Oh Cinderella… you have grown up so much to think in this angle... Anyway help me to keep these vessels in the cupboard, that would be enough...

OK Mamma…

****

Thus… Cinderella started to write things which would be of help to others in the family and at the same time getting things that she wanted. However she made sure she was there to watch that event happen so that she gets what she wanted… As days went by, the city where Cinderella lived started experiencing extreme drought and there were scarcity of water. Rain was difficult to come by and people started planning to move to different city for their living.

Cinderella’s father was extremely devastated by the continuous failure of monsoon and so he decided one day to put her daughter Cinderella to her aunt’s place in a distant city so that she can continue her education from there. Because of his family business, he decided not to relocate himself but for her daughter’s future education sake, with heavy heart he conveyed the decision to move her daughter to distance place to the family.

After much persuasion he made Cinderella to accept this though she didn’t’ wanted to leave her family and her born city. On the night before she has to leave the town, she got remembered about her magic pen. She realized that her father has decided her to put in her aunt’s place only because of lack of monsoon rains and if there is rainfall, she no longer will be sent to a distant place. So she soon took the pen and wrote on the paper “I will not go to my aunt’s place to study if it rains tomorrow as if it has not rained before and make my father happy”… And she slept peacefully thinking her Angel would help her once again...

****

Cinderella.. Wake up my Darling… You need to get ready as you have to leave for your Aunt’s place...

Mamma… Is it raining outside?

What? Get up Cinderella... Don’t be in dreams...

No Mamma... see outside, it should be raining for sure...

I wish... It happens... as we all would be happy darling…. But (weeps...)

No Mamma... it should rain, My Angel would make it happen, look at this paper, I have written so...

Oh God... what is this Cinderella? What are you upto? This not going to happen... who told you all this?

No Mamma... It would happen... The Angel you told in the stories really came and made my pen as a magic pen and granted me the wish that whatever I write in this paper would really happen…

Oh God, what happened to you my child? These are all fantasies story I told you to make you sleep.. this wouldn’t come true, probably you had a dream of all that… now get ready…

No mamma.. look at this doll.. look at these chocolates covers… I got all of them through this pen only…

Now stop this nonsense, I don’t want to hear any of this crap story.. I gave these presents as a secret gift since you had been very helpful recent times... I kept them under your pillow as a secret gift and it’s not any Angel who gave this.. Understand! now get ready before your father comes to know about it..

Oh no.. so you put me these dolls secretly as a secret Gift!!.. so there is no Angel in my life? This pen is not a magic pen? So it’s not going to rain today? That means… I am going to leave you all for ever… (weeps…)

Oh Cinderella.. you have to get matured.. these fantasies stories will never come true… I feel sorry for you.. I wish we really had an Angel to grant us all you wished for... especially the rains… but this is the reality and we need to accept.. Dreams don’t come true… now give a kiss to your mamma and get ready.. I am probably not sure when I will get it again...

Oh Mommy… I don’t want to go…

****

You haven’t slept yet …

How can I sleep after watching my daughter leaving us with full of pain in the heart... Didn’t you seen her crying and holding my hands and begging that she didn’t wanted to leave us…

You think I was happy to let her go as a Father? Atleast you could cry to show of your emotions… I wish I could do that as well...

She would have reached her aunt’s place by now I think… not sure if she had eaten properly… she would have slept by now, isn’t it?

Yeah... don’t worry, it is gonna be 12 soon… I’m sure she would have dozed off…

I wish Angel do exist in the world...

What?

Ah... Nothing... I mean I wish we didn’t have to face this monsoon failure… I wish it rains now…

If it’s rains now, I would be happy for the people living here.. but that doesn’t mean we will be calling back our daughter... as you know her future would be good if she remains in her Aunt’s place and…

Eh stop... did you hear that?

Hear what?

The Thunder..! Open the window.. I heard it…

Come on... Thunder at this time!!!

Open the Window first...

Oh yes, you are right! It’s lightening as well… Hurray... I can’t believe it... How this could happen?

Because Angel do exist... We fail to see it and Cinderella saw it… I wish she was here to see this rainfall…

Who?

Cinderella....

(The End)

Emotions (Part 1 - Affection)

Congratulations Gupta, It’s a baby boy…

Oh thank you doctor.. thank you very much, how is she… ?

She is fit enough to join you for the next month most anticipated movie release “Bobby”… haha…

Oh..Doctor DZousa, you have made my life meaningful, how will I repay my debt?

You repay by making your son a worthy human being, one who knows to love fellow beings… God Bless you my Child… Go and see your diamonds inside... (Winkles)

**

Can you buy these items while coming back from office in the evening?

Can’t we buy this next week; I would have my salary by that time…

No, this is for our baby, we can’t postpone… please arrange for it...

Hmm, okay... can you talk to your uncle and see if they can take care of our child this Saturday ?

Why.. what happened?

Entire town is talking about the movie “Bobby”… Dimple is just awesome, so does the new kid in the block Rishi…

I can’t allow my kid to be in Uncle’s house for our enjoyment… we have to change…

Oh Amit ki Maa, we are going to be away from him for just 3-4 hours... I am not calling you for movie every week, it’s just that I want to spend some time with you and make you happy as well…

I’m happy at home with Amit… please understand... you just told me to postpone buying some items for our Amit, because you are running short of money.. and now you want to watch movie in the weekend..

So what you want me to do? Forego all enjoyment just because we have a baby now...?

What is enjoyment? For me you and Amit with me is the enjoyment... I would be happier if this Saturday is spent at home playing with Amit and with his father too... (Winkles)

**

Deepa, where is Amit?

Just now Amit slept...

Oh, have you prepared for the dinner?

No, not yet, Just now planning to go to Kitchen to start the work, and you have come…. Wait, I’ll get you a coffee…

No, Deepa, come here…

Oh... leave me, what is this? Leave me... I have work... Amit will wake up…

Nothing, he will not wake up, he is my son, he knows the needs of his father… and no hurry to prepare Dinner, and we will have it outside, first let’s spend some time inside…

On no, please leave me... I have work...

Deepa, come on...

Sorry, I really don’t have any interest on it anymore… let’s concentrate on Amit… let’s not get distracted… and moreover with your earnings, I think we will be able to give good education and living for Amit, if he doesn’t have someone to share it…

You have spoiled my mood Deepa…

Yes, I did... for Amit… (Winkles)

The End

(to be contd..if mood permits)

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Mrs.Venkat

I have one good news Venkat... guess what?

Any clue ?

Something which will make you jump out from your bed..

Don’t tell me you are going to be a mother again? We played it safe last time...

Grow up Venkat? When will you stop your crap..

Ok, ok.. just kidding.. tell me what it is.. ?

I got the contact number of Nisha..

Wow.. really… I can’t believe it.. how could you manage to do it…?

I am your wife sir... atleast I should have half your talents right...

Eh.. I’m serious.. how could you able to get her contact.. I didn’t have chance to reach her even since she quit her job..

I know.. you were more interested to brood over your past memories with her rather than to be in touch..

Ya… it’s not the same right.. you can just a pull a joke at the blink of eye during the days you were together, and when you got separated, you just don’t get a word to speak..

Ok, ok, now don’t talk philosophies… you want me to dial her number so that you can speak ?

Ya.. I will, but first let me talk to you for some time..

You are eating my brains since morning..What is that you want to talk to me now? ..

Sweet nothings ?

Ah.. ha… very funny Venkat… trying to be romantic.. Ah!

Why.. Mrs. Venkat has any problems with that?

You are no.1 flirt da..

Why do you say that? Because I asked you to get me the contact details of my inspirational ladies in my life with whom I lost contact?

No, Becasue I know why you wanted me to search their whereabouts now..

Why, tell me?

You were concerned… right ?

Hmm.. Yeah... I am concerned... I am concerned... I wanted to know the news of their happiness as well. I want to hear that they are happy somewhere in this world…

You know.. Nisha is in Australia now with her daughter & husband.. Her daughter has got some merit to practice in the top Cancer Medical Institute there, she has just gone to see her..

Oh is it? Wow… Her daughter is one genius.. let me tell you… I could remember her face even now when I last saw her.. as a child… Quite a long time… Ah.. some memories don’t die so soon..

Yes.. like my life with you..

Oh, now who is acting romantic here.. Mrs. Venkat ?

No body can beat you sir on that..

Hahah.. thanks for the credit.. so do you think Nisha would still remember me ?

Hmm.. I think yes, in few minutes, she can remember you.. ?

How are you so sure on that ?

She must not have met lot many crazy creatures like you in her life…so it is easy to recollect for her!

Shut up!... so what is the status of others ?

Hello! Finding the whereabouts of one person itself took my brain out.. there are still some 8 to 9 odd people.. give me some time.. I would get you.. But I am sure to find Aradhana details by today evening, got some clue through facebook..

Oh.. you have now become internet savy, all the years, you never looked at that…

What to do ? all fate…

You are cursing me.. ?

Do I have the option?

No, even if you have, I wont leave you..

Tell me, out of 9 people whom you wished to know their whereabouts, 7 are girls… you seem to have lot of interest on woman than men .. Why is it so?

It is just a coincidence da...

Tell this story to someone who is outside... not to me..

No really.. believe me.. Anything that is spontaneous, simple , natural & life interest me? Those were abundance in the list of people I gave you...

Oh.. Oh.. that’s the reason why you still curious to know their whereabouts… ?

You can’t say it is just a curiosity.. don’t you try to call our son daily to check if he is alright and had food at the right time?

Yes I do...

Can you describe the feeling that you get when you are not able to reach him after dialing his number couple of times..?

Quite difficult…

Can you describe your feelings, when he calls you after a long time with utmost happiness to share any good news… ?

It’s a feeling of transcend

Mine is mix of all these Mrs. Venkat… I can’t really explain... It’s the concern that I want to know about them... the people who made me to feel… the people who made me feel important and who made me to realize myself...

Hmm… what if I have rejected your request?

You could have, but I know you won’t...

Why?

Because you know, it’s with you I was transparent completely 100% all these years… one can’t be in that state until he trust & love somebody so completely… So how can you ignore one request if it's coming through the words of love ?

Words.. let me tell you.. it’s all you have to take my heart away..

Boyzone..

Words don’t come easily…

Again boyzone..

Ok, I’m going…

Eh.. eh.. wait.. please be here for some more time na..

It’s getting late for me, you better talk to Nisha and then go to sleep…

I will talk to her tomorrow early morning, not today.. want to talk to you for some more time…

Oh god, you are spoiling my sleep today… you are talking to me since morning dear… with great difficulty I got Nisha phone number and you keep talking to me, instead of dialing her number..

Hahah..

Don’t laugh, I am more curious to know what you both would talk after such a long gap..

Oh ho.. its’ a secret, I will call her after you leave the place, it’s between us…

Hello Mr… I will delete the number right away, if you don’t allow me to stay when you talk to Nisha or Aradhana, or others in the list..

Oh god.. I am scared..

You .. scared!!!.. that too with me.. forget it..

Hahah.. Frankly, you do scare me with the utmost love and faith you have in me Mrs. Venkat.. every time you do that to me, I feel I should be even more responsible & truthful to you and our family..

It’s all that I could do for you right... Venkat... tell me one thing... Are you really happy being with me... ? Did I ever made you feel that … oh god.. why the hell I married her... kind of thought ? Please be honest ah..

Its’ very difficult to tell..

Why?

Because I lost count of it… hehehe

Ok, I’m leaving, you talk to your Nisha, bisha… I’m going..

Eh, eh, please... please… k, let me think.. hmm. .your first question, Am I really happy being with you.. ? Yes.. I do.. I enjoy and rejoince each and every moment I am with you da.. Every time the night comes when you go to sleep, I just feel, can’t it come little late, so that I can spend more being with you…

I would really appreciate, if you can stop flirting and speak the reality..

Oh god, what else you expect me to say.. this is the problem with you girls, if we speak the truth with over emotions, you feel we are flirting & if we keep quiet, you think men are not appreciative…

How can in the earth you expect women to believe your words, if you talk filmy dialogues for simple questions…

Ok, I have answered your first question, whether to believe it or not is your problem, not mine.. let me come to your next question.. what is that?

Enough, I can’t handle it, your first answer is enough…

So, if you are satisfied with my answer, can we go for THAT?

Go for what ?

You know.. What I mean… Darling.. Our son wanted a sister for a long time..

Oh sure, I know what you mean? let's do THAT right away..

Oh god.. you are faster than me… for the moment, just a kiss would do darling… the rest we will see tomorrow..

Haha.. Ok Venkat.. here it’s coming.. hot kisses for my Venkat.. Good Night..

Good Night..

(Next Day)

Hello, Am I speaking with Mrs. Venkat ?

Yes..

Your husband Mr. Venkat was admitted to our hospital for the treatment of Heart Disease last Monday, His age is 72. Am I right Mrs. Venkat?

Yes, right, what happened?

Sorry to say Mrs. Venkat, he is no more…

Oh.. No… Did he suffer before dying ?

No Mrs. Venkat, he died during his sleep... you were the last whom he was talking with before he went to sleep.. We tried too...

… …

Hello.. hello Mrs. Venkat..

… …

Mrs. Venkat, could you please come to our hospital and do the remaining formalities and pay the hospital fees… hello?

… …

(Oh Venkat, I know it is coming.. but not so soon.. can’t you have stayed for one more day for me.. can't I see you talking to your old friends & feel happy about that.. You promised that we would do THAT today na.. When will you start keeping up your promises Venkat!… you irresponsible idiot.. Can’t you stayed for one more night, just for me…)

(Mrs.Venkat's Secretary comes)

Mrs. Venkat . Aradhana is on line.. Oh.. What happened? Mrs. Venkat.. Mrs. Venkat.. Guys, call the Doctor, Mrs. Venkat.. can you hear me.. call the doctor soon, she is not responding.. Mrs.. Venkat… Can you hear me?

… …

AIR

(In the year of 1985)

You can handle her na?

Why should I? She would anyway be coming from school in few minutes, you deal with her..

You are her mom na? You talk to her, I can’t... she will blast me

Don’t forget, you are her father too... You too can handle her..

But…

If you don’t know how to handle it, then why did you nod your head, when she asked you?

I thought, it would be easy, I didn’t knew that would become too complicated for me...

I really can’t imagine her reactions when she comes to know about it…

Even I’m bothered... Oh god... Gone are those days, when kids used to get afraid of their parents, now we are dependent on them and we have to feel the pinch ever day…

Talk these logics after she is at home… I don’t know, it’s between you and your daughter, don’t pull me into this...

You were also there na, when she was demonstrating on the other day, atleast you could have done it right…

Don’t put the blame on me, I was just standing, you only nodded…

Ok, ok, our daughter has come, keep quiet, let me handle it...

Come Aradhana.. Wash your hands & freshen up, mamma has prepared hot Pakoda’s for you specially…

No, first let me hear it, then we can do the rest… where is it?

It will not go anywhere, first let’s…

Papa… give me a break... I said, I want to listen it first… where is the cassette?

Ah... it is... It is here…

Oh good, let me play it…

Aradhana… actually… that one...

What... I’ll hear you later, first I want to hear it... did you people listen it?

I am very sorry Aradhana, it didn’t get recorded...

Oh papa, stop kidding me, you know it’s not play time… if you are hungry you have your quota of pakoda first, I want to hear it first...

Aradhana, I followed your instructions, but I could not record because….

What? Are you serious? You really didn’t record my program?

I actually followed what you taught me the other day but…

Oh god, I just can’t believe this, you … please tell me na that you are kidding... I know... you are kidding only right… let me play it & see..

No ma, I am really sorry, I thought it was recording, but when I tried to play it later, I could not hear anything...

Papa… what have you done? Can’t you do this simple thing properly...? You know what it is meant to me?

Ya.. I know...

No, you don’t know... you are not really bothered… you just don’t care for my happiness…

Aradhana, why are you getting emotional, take it easy…

No, I can’t.. This is not simple for me, this is my dream… do you imagine what it means to sing in the Radio…

I know da…

No you don’t, if you have known, you could not have done this disaster... with great difficulty I got a chance to sing for All India Radio (AIR), I told you thousand times, they are airing it today and I wanted to listen it , come what may…

You first sit aradhana.. Don’t get emotional…

Don’t touch me… I told you that I would not go to school as I wanted to listen it Live, you convinced me that you would record the program in our tape recorder and make me listen later... Now what happened?

They will air it again da…

Oh papa... you are not even bothered to give explanation what went wrong today and you are talking about something which may not happen at all… I told all my friends that my program is coming in the Radio today and I have invited them this weekend to listen it.. now what face can I show infront of them..? You are waste papa.. You are total waste...

I am sorry da aradhana… don’t cry please...

Don’t dare to touch me again... Leave me alone... I taught you how to record the radio program using our tape recorder, and I asked you thousand times, if you have understood, did I ask you or not…

Yes, you asked, I agree… I actually followed your instruction properly, but somehow I don’t know what went wrong, when I tried to play it, I could not hear it …

Papa, please don’t talk any more, you have ruined my day and my happiness... you are not fit for anything... you can’t even do this simple thing for me, what will you do for my future….

Stop it aradhana, is this the way you talk to your father…? he didn’t do this knowingly, it just didn’t work…

(tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

Hello!...

……

Ah, she is here, I am giving… Aradhana, the phone is for you...

I don’t want to talk to anyone, you do what you want…

Please ma, this is our Keshav, he will feel bad, please take the call…

You are irritating me to the core daddy… give me the phone…. Hello…

……

Yes Uncle…

……

Thank you uncle… thank you very much, you really liked it?

……

Ok uncle, all your blessings, bye…

(tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

Hello…

………

Yes Aunty, Aradhana speaking…

………

I am very happy, you listened it...

……

I am not sure, if they will air it again, if they do, I’ll let you know…

……

Oh ok… all your blessings aunty… bye…

Papa... did you tell that I am going to sing to Keshav Uncle & Eeshwari Aunty?

(tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. )

Hello?

………

Thank you so much sir… thanks for your wishes, I am happy that you listened to it...

……

Bye sir…

(Tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

Mom, don’t pick the phone, let it ring.. papa.. How many people did you inform that I am singing today on Radio…?

Sorry Aradhana… I was so happy that you are singing, so thought of telling it to few people whom we know..

(Tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

I didn’t ask why you informed... I asked whom you told?

He has called up our entire colony people about it? He also went to the nearby booth afternoon and informed about your program to all our relatives living in Delhi.. I think they might call you after 9 PM as the STD charges would be less that time…

(Tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

Oh Mamma... Papa has called the entire world about my program today and… (starts crying)

Eh Aradhana, what happened, why are you crying now… I’m sorry da, first I could not record your program properly, now again you are not happy since I told these people about your program, I’m really sorry da… don’t cry… I can’t take it.. Forgive me please...

(Tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring..)

Oh papa… please... How much you would have loved me that you wanted the entire world to listen to my program and I was just shouting at you for me not able to hear my own recording… I know how much it costs for each calls you made … papa you love me so much na…

Oh it’s no big deal da… why you are crying again…

Who asked you to make STD calls and all, so what if they don’t hear me…?

How can it be? My daughter is singing in Radio and I want everyone to hear it… You know what? you are the only one in our family, who could do it.. You know how much proud I’m…

Oh papa.. you are so sweet… (hugs)… mamma.. Where is my pakoda?...

Just 10 minutes, I’ll give you hot hot…

Okay no problem, till you come, let me teach my father once again how to record a program in our tape recorder… papa take your notes…

(Tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.. tring.. Tring.)

The End

(After writing this story, I thought "AIR" would be more effective if taken visually than through reading it - DT)

It's only Time...

(Tring.. Tring…)

Hello…

Ah Babu, Nishant here… Jyotsna reached home?

No sir? Madam is still not arrived home…

Oh ok, what is Kaniska doing? Did she have food?

Yes sir, she is now asleep, do you want me to call her?

No, no, it’s ok... don’t wake her up, did she cry while taking food… ?

Not today sir, she was watching some cartoon channel, had food and now in bed… nothing to worry... sir…

Oh ok... When Jyotsna comes, tell her I called …

Ok sir, By the way, how is the weather there? I heard its pretty cold in UK…

Wow, when did Babu in Calcutta started knowing the weather conditions in UK?

From the time you went to UK for business trip for four months, any news from UK interests me sir…

Not bad… not bad… I am happy you keep reading newspapers babu… I just don’t want to keep you as a mere servant in my house... keep learning...

Thank you... I will do it … All your blessings sir…

Ok, I have some meeting to attend…. Will talk later… bye…

Bye sir…

______________

OK Shamita, I am getting late… Have to go home… Once again congratulations for your Engagement and I know you just can’t keep waiting for your marriage day… Ah!

Haha.. I bet… You know what Jyotsna more than me, my fiancée is dying hard … I can wait you see… just for his sake, I want to get married soon; otherwise I am not in hurry…

Ah... ah... For your information, I am your senior and have more than 5 years of experience in this marriage world… I know who is dying and who isn’t…

Whatsoever but thank you once again for coming...? I was wondering if you could make it up or not… after all it’s pretty far away from your home..

Ya… it is... But how can I miss my dear friend’s engagement… tell me…

Oh ya… you could have brought Kaniska too here right... after all your husband is out of India… she would be alone at home…

That way I am lucky, I have a very smart & matured daughter... she doesn’t trouble me much... and I have also promised her to take her to the nearby park tomorrow evening… so she is happy for it…

Oh great... I only hope he too is understanding and post marriage let me live as I want to...

Who? Your fiancée…

Ya.. That way you are very lucky Jyotsna… you have been living your life as you wanted to… even after marriage… not many get that sort of life…

Yeah… marriage is the interval you get in the movie... you never knew how the second half would be… hahah… In that way I am lucky... both my first half and the second half is as per my liking…

I am afraid, if we would be able to see each other more often as we used to do before… you see… those movies, those hang outs.. those funny naughty things we do, keep talking hours together with our gang… I will miss all those…

Eh, you are saying as if you are in the death bed... come on... you are getting married… Shamita…

Yeah... don’t you think getting married means putting a full stop to a woman’s personal desires…? Do you think I can still be the same as I was after marriage…?

Do you think I have changed... did I ever said no to any of our gang outing plans? I was there whenever you people wanted me right...

Not everybody get as understanding husband as Jyotsna gets yaar… tell me where is Nidhi, Sheela or for that matter our gang leader Manisha today?… all vowed to be together, but they are nowhere to be seen today after their marriage.. I am telling you, marriage puts a full stop to one’s individual desire… no more outings, no more friends, no more late night sitting…

Eh, Shamita, don’t get emotional, I know John, he would let you live your life as you want to... I bet…

____________

(Late Night)

Babu… Did Kanishka had milk before she went to bed?

No Madam… she refused to take…

Oh God! How many times I told you to ensure that she has her milk before she goes to bed…

I tried my level best, but she refused to take, I could not force her on it… sorry madam…

Oh Babu… I don’t know what to do with you…. Forget it... Then did Nishant called up?

Oh yes Madam, sir tried 2-3 times… he was saying your mobile was not reachable…

Did he leave any message…?

No Mad…

(Tring.. Tring.. )

It must be him…. Hello… !

Hi Jyotsna… Nishant here… When did you turn back?

Just now darling... Shamita engagement went well…. Had a great time… it was fun... so how are you doing? It must be lunch time there…

Ya I am doing fine…. Is kaniska around?

Ah No, she has gone to bed long back… even today she went to bed without having milk, I just don’t know what to do with Babu… How can he be so irresponsible…?

You think it is Babu’s fault?

Of course… I told him strictly to give her milk before going to bed… and...

Did he forget?

No he didn’t, he says Kaniska refused to take… she is a small child... How can she know what is good for her, and what is not?

Right... I agree... leave that… so what were you doing in the evening. ?

Oh…. As soon as I came from office, I had some work over Internet, finished that... had some work in kitchen, did that… ironed my dresses, left for the engagement.. that’s it..

What was our kid doing?

Ah, she is my darling Angel... you know she mostly never disturbs me, she was quiet, reading her comics books, playing with her stuff… didn’t trouble me at all…

You were not there with her?

She didn’t require me Nishant… she was quiet with her own self & stuff…. I would have gone if she needed me… why you ask?

No, just like that…I was just wondering, if she knew when she requires her mother, when not?

What’s your point?

Well, when you are right in pointing out Babu’s fault as how does the kid know which is right for her, which is not… don’t you agree, as a mother it is necessary for you to spend time with our daughter, instead of waiting for her to call you, as you think, she knows better when to call you, when not to?

Come on Nishant, you think I am not looking after my daughter properly?

Well, I am not, but I just feel the time you are giving to your daughter is much less than what she needs…

But how can I make you understand, I am always there for her when she needs me... but she just doesn’t require my attention most of the time…

That’s what I fear Jyotsna, it should not happen for her at this early age that she just doesn’t want her mother at all… I just don’t want see the situation where she doesn’t even require the presence of her mother …

So you didn’t like me coming back late from the engagement…

Did I say that?

But I can understand…. You want me to cut down my outings and be at home most of the time… right?

Jyotsna… I never wanted you to be in the cage... I want you to fly free always... I still remember my request you to be as you are even after marriage... and continue to live the life as you wanted to... without any inhibitions… as I don’t want my wife to be tied down in the name of family responsibilities…

Then why this discussion here…

At the same time, I also fear your freedom doesn’t necessarily come at the cost of our daughter missing her mother… she might not ask for your attention directly, nevertheless it doesn’t mean you are not required there… she is a small child, whether or not she calls you, I feel it’s utmost necessary that you be with her most of the time as she is growing… she needs a shelter in the name of mother or father all the time, even though she may not feel the cold…

I got your point… But I just feel you are exaggerating things, I am there for her always…

If that’s the case, I am happy for our daughter that she has got a lovely mother… if not, I just request you to ponder over it... and do what’s best for our daughter… because so long as we were living, it just two of us, but now we have an angel for whose presence we are responsible.. and we have the moral responsibility to take care of it…

___________

(Next Day)

(Tring.. Tring..)

Babu… Nishant Here…. Is jyotsna around?

No sir, she has gone out…

Oh ya… I remember, she was telling me that she had to attend her friend’s birthday party…

No sir, she cancelled it… she has gone now with Kaniska to the children’s theme park in the morning and told that she will be back by evening only…

Oh is it!!!.. Great.. Ok Babu... see you later…

(Tring Tring)

Eh Jyo, Nishi here… what’ up? You didn’t go to your friends’ birthday party?

Oh you called home…! You only said na, I am not spending time with my daughter…

Oh Jo…

Haha… Just kidding... I am still right to say that I am doing all that I can do for my daughter so far… but at the same time, I am not denying that you are wrong.. Your fear is justified and quite right...

Hmm…Thanks…

So I have decided to cut down my personal interests a bit and live my life for my daughter... after all now her life is my personal interest too …

Oh Jyo, I love you…

Hahah.. You happy?

Ya, but I still have another complaint against you…

Oh god, what now?

People say you still don’t look like a mother?

What? What else you want me to do?

I am not talking about your character, I am talking about your physical look, guys complain you still look like a teenage girl…

Oh that you should take it as a compliment dear…

I can’t... and I am going to work seriously on that once I return back from UK…

Oh god, what are you going to do now? I don’t go to beauty parlor either...

No, I have some other plans… I am going to make you look like a mother again as Kaniska too was asking for a brother to play with… so…

Haha..You Idiot... keep the phone down…

I love you Jo…

I love you too Darling...

I too love you Mamma…

(Kaniska hugs Jyotsna)