Abi & Myself... (Abiyum..Nanum)

So Venkat, time for the next story to be updated on your blog? Are you ready with one?

Oh yeah, I’m… Hope it comes out well…

Haha,.. you hope for that every time you write a story, but invariably you fail….

Hello! My English Kids are not that bad as you think, ok!!...

Ok, ok…. Let’s start the story… so where does this story revolve around?

It revolves around two friends… and they are in midst of celebrating something...

Something –ah, what is that?

Read the story, you would know…

Hi… Good morning!

Good Morning Abi, what’s up… looking so refreshed today?

Hmm… Yeah… you know there is something special today?

Oh is it? hmm.. let me take a guess.. Today is your birthday…

What nonsense! It’s in the month of June… try again…

Hmm… today is the day you really thought you are going to work in the office…

Oye donkey! How dare you to comment me like this! I am known for hard working…

Ok, ok… you are indeed one… sorry, I lose; you tell me what’s special today…

Let me tell you, you are No.1 waste… today we are completing 6 months of our friendship da…

Oh… I see…

What a fantastic reaction! I atleast expected some formality happiness ya!

Eh, I am happy for that, but I am sorry about my reaction though, it was something spontaneous….

That’s what I am surprised, I can’t agree with your happiness then... You don’t really think this is something of remarkable day… or the day to celebrate… you don’t really want to cherish our friendship…

It’s not like that, I am really happy for our friendship Abi!...

You say so, but not your reactions!

Reactions ko Goli Maro! Ok, tell me, how you want to celebrate this day…

Forget it! I lost all the mood…

What is this Venkat? Once again this story is going nowhere! Your hero is very complicated…

Why you say so?

Then what? Abi is so happy to celebrate their 6 months of friendship, this guy looks dumb, no reactions at all...

Sir, we really don’t know why he is reacting like that? His low reactions, doesn’t mean he is not interested in the friendship… it might be something else also…

What is that…?

We don’t know, we have to read the story to know that…

I know what next would happen... as usual, this guy would now make up for his earlier mistake… will talk goody goody words and take her to some restaurant or so and give a good treat for her to celebrate this day… that’s how all men hide their mistakes…

Haha.. I agree few men do that, but let’s see if our Hero is one among them… so as you say, the next scene is in a restaurant…

So how is the chocolate icecream Abi?

Oh delicious da… I love chocolates to death… hehe

Don’t eat much ok! Not good for your teeths!

Enough of your advises, you keep on advising me for everything… ok, I want to ask you one thing…

What?

you remember, at the start of our friendship, I asked you to list down my mistakes & you told you would give your real response in future…

hmm, I do… How can you expect me to tell some one’s good or bad things within 1 week of introduction…?

ok, ok… now since it’s been 6 months, I think you can list down few right…

Few-ah, there are many yaar..

oye!.. Ok, if so, I want to know that…

Not now, sometime later…

No, no… I want to know now only…

Ok, we will play a small game, I will ask you set of few questions, your answers should only be either ‘yes’ or ‘no’… okay!

So what’s the trick in this!

The trick is I bet all your answer would only be ‘No’. If your answer is ‘No’ for all the questions that I ask, then I win... so I won’t tell your mistakes at all… and if you can say ‘Yes’ even for one single question, then you win, I will answer all your questions.. Got it Abi?

Eh, this is not fair…. What if you ask “are you a male”, my answer will be obviously ‘No’, so you win... Ah! This is not fair baba…

You wise lady! My questions won’t be like that, for e.g. I will ask you, “did you bath today”... obviously your answer would be ‘No’... so I win... right…

Stupid, Get Lost!

Eh, it’s just an example... ok, so what I meant was my questions would be something genuine, which you could have done, but not did so far… got it?

Hmm, ok... let’s try this out… I wish I could say ‘Yes’ for atleast one of your question... so shoot!

OK, this is a rapid wire round… so I need your answers quickly…

Venkat what is this? Is this a quiz show… you said your characters are going to celebrate their 6 months friendship, and they are talking something nonsense here…

Whether it is something nonsense or wise, we will only know after the story ends… infact do you know what happened in Abi’s house in the morning, she had a very interesting conversation with her sister…

Oh what’s that?

Eh Abi! You look so energetic & happy today! What’s the matter?

Nothing, I am going to meet my best friend, by today we complete our 6 months friendship…

Oh is it! Who is that by the way, the same one in your office…?

Of course yes, who else then…

Oh great, nice to know that… but what’s in him that you like so much…

He is my best friend…

In what sense?

He cares for me more than he cares for himself…, he knows my moods, he reads my emotions perfectly and he doesn’t complain on anything that I don’t do for him…

What are those…?

Like, I never really cared about his problem, I mean I wasn’t interested… or I should say I was more concerned about my own world that I didn’t really look beyond that… so I don’t really know much about his World of people…

So you say, you people talk more about yourself and your set of world rather than anything about him…

Yeah perfectly, it’s OK at the start of any relationship, after a while, the other person might really get bored or frustrated whoever it may be, but this fellow.. Didn’t really complain even once for not really showing that ‘care’ for him… He was there all the time when I needed him, but I am not sure whether I was there for him whenever he needed me…

Interesting! Didn’t he complain about that even once?

No he didn’t... that’s very amazing… and that alone made me to think… if I ever will get a friend, who isn’t worried whether I care for him or not… or I should say whether I show that I care for him or not… he is still there for me all the time… he doesn’t complain even once that I don’t ask any question about him…

Hmm…. Good… all the best…

So what relevance has this part in the story Venkat?

Hello! Why you ask me all the questions, read the story yaa… you will get to know...

Ok, continue with the rest of the story…

So can I ask my questions... Abi?

Yup… don’t make me wait…

Do you know my birth date?

Hello! What is this question ya… I…

Madam Abi! You are only requested to answer ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ for my questions, that’s the deal… so say yes or no…

Ok, No!

Did you made efforts to know my date of birth?

No..

Do you really think you know what irritates me in my daily life…?

No!

Do you know the biggest problem I’m facing in my personal or professional life?

Well, No…

You know I own a website, so do you regularly check what I write in there..

Eh, I said, I will, I didn’t find time… so…

Yes or no Abi!

Ok, No…

I said, I had a severe pain in my eye few days ago, did you check with me the next day as how I was feeling…

So what is your conclusion now? You mean to say I don’t take care of you…

Y or N!

NOOOOOOOOO

Do you really think, you know me…?

……

I didn’t hear anything…

NO

Do you know what makes me happy & what makes me upset…?

Ok stop it ya! I lose…I know for all your questions, my answer is going to be NO, so now what is that you wanted to prove here…

That you have to understand…

Now I understood… why you had no reactions when I wished you for our 6 months friendship, you don’t really like me or my friendship; you were frustrated with me for not showing enough care or interest in your world….

It’s not that Abi!

No, I am not a child! I can understand, if you think I am not worth, then OK fine, let’s give a full stop to our friendship… you believe I’m not worth your friendship, ok fine… I’m not…

Can you give me a minute to talk Abi!

You already talked sir! You talked enough…

Now what’s there to get emotional Abi!

Your hero is very sadist fellow sir! He asks all stupid questions, he makes this poor girl Abi to cry… and finally as if he has done nothing wrong, he says, what’s there to get emotional… this is stupid stuff…

So why do you think he is sadist?

Then what Venkat, didn’t you see what this poor Abi was telling her sister… she is very well aware of her short comings, and since she feels that this fellow has not highlighted them, she has high regard for him… now see by asking all such stupid questions, he has downgraded himself.. He is not any special person; he is also one among the other ones, who has all typical expectations from others…

Haha…

What’s there to laugh… first I thought your Hero is something different from others, no he is not... he also has expectation, and when his expectations doesn’t come true… he waits for the right time to pour it out as poison without caring how others will feel..

Tell me one thing… Abi only asked to highlight her mistakes, right!

Yes she did…. But by doing so, he is now losing her friendship nah… the same reason for which she thought he is her best friend, has now gone into pieces…

Is that so? Ok, let see what Abi is gonna do now… can we see the conclusion…

Quick… Venkat… I want justice to be given Abi… and also finish it off quickly, already your story has gone into 5th page...

What ya! All want justice to girls… think about men too boss! They are also poor….

Whether or not they are poor, it depends upon how you conclude the story, now go ahead…

Abi, look at me and listen to me for a minute… you asked me to highlight your mistakes right…

Yes I did, but I never thought you will disappoint me with such crap… I thought you are something special, no… you are also one among the others, you are also selfish… you also want to receive 50, if you think you have given your 50…

Haha, My abi is best when she gets emotional…. Arae yaar… today we are celebrating our 6th month of friendship... so what else is the best occasion to see the stock of our relationship so far... I thought we have reached a stage where any daily course of arguments wouldn’t anyway affect our friendship otherwise…

If so, what’s the logic behind your questions…?

Logic… you want logic... ok, tell me what are you going to wear tomorrow?

Now what is this another stupid question? You have already asked enough questions…

Please answer… do you know or not…

No, I don’t…

Ok, my point is as we don’t know what’s gonna happen tomorrow, I am also not sure what’s gonna happen to our friendship either… we might still celebrate 16th year of friendship… or we might get busy with our own world that we might hardly remember our 1st friendship anniversary…

So…

So I thought this is the right time to tell you few things…

Like…

I want you to take little interest of what’s going on with the people around you… show that you care for them too... tomorrow I might be here or not… you might be with a new relationship, a better one may be… but I don’t want this thing to create a problem for you.. Like you, others too like to share things that are going on in their world, some do it openly as you do, and some wait for the right moment...

So...

There is nothing wrong to be too involved in your own world, but occasionally come out of that, and start taking interest in others too, they might be looking for you, that’s what I wanted to tell you… again I’m happy with the way you are with me so far… but I wanted you to think about it if you are getting into any kind of new relationship in future… got it Abi!

Hmm… So what is your Date of birth?

Heheh… stop it Abi! I’m not going to tell you, and I don’t want you to ask any questions about me now… don’t keep this in your head for ever… just think about it... if you think I was right in something, try to implement it with others and see the results… all the best…

You know what?

Kya Abi?

You are still my best friend! ....

The Real Critic

Yesterday

Yeh Tumhari Meri Baathein, Hamesha Yuhin Chalti Rahe
Yeh Hamari Mulakate, Hamesha Yuhin Chalti Rahe

Boss stop singing this song, you should sing ‘maine pyar kiya”... that’s what needed for you now...

Hmm... I agree, but for me to sing that song, I should get one, right!

Don’t worry, keep your eyes & heart open, you would get one soon

Wish your words come true soon…

By the way, why you have stopped writing stories… haven’t seen any stories in your blog since this New Year has started…

Yaar, not finding any…

Any story knot…

Let me complete yaar… every day I find atleast 4-5 knots... but there is no inclination to write…

Why, since there are no readers…

Haha...that is anyway there even while I was writing... but this time I don’t know... maybe I am little happier than last year?

Happier? What stops you from writing if you are happy?

Most of my stories are written only when I’m in pensive & poignant mood…

Oh I see… can’t really understand all of your thought patterns..it’s all weird like your stories…

Why you say that? What’s wrong with my stories?

I’m sorry to say this... most of your stories are really stupid stories…

Oh!

Yeah... they are indeed...crap… they go nowhere... and many are like ‘beat around the bush’ types...

But I thought people liked it…

How can you be sure of? First there would only be handful of people who are reading it, and in them only one or two comment for your stories... rest of them think that reading your story itself is the biggest favour they have done for you… so

So you think my stories are real crap….

Not only crap but also stupid… no sense at all whatsoever…

You should have heart to feel my stories…

Bull shit!

Thanks for your encouraging comments…

I don’t mind if you feel bad with what I say here, but you really deserve a tight slap for torturing the readers with the ideas you come up for your stories…

Eh you know what? I actually thought of writing one story today, as I haven’t done for long time, but your kind words make me think now…

Oh please do…

You mean I should write a story

Oh god, I mean to say please think…

Think about what?

Think about whether you should actually write stories or not? I have already decided to stop visiting your blog since there is nothing but crap.

What can I do? That’s what comes from me… but all are genuine feelings yaar... maybe I might not have beautiful, rhythmic, high quality English words to put it in writing…

Ooff... Enough... Let’s stop here…

I know the moment, I start explaining something about myself... you say it’s enough… atleast sometime you should allow others to talk… more importantly you should atleast have the habit of listening…

Ok the topic is going somewhere, let me make myself clear, stop writing stories...that’s the best thing you can do... because you can’t come out with any good one’s…

Ok yaar, I can’t say no to you... I won’t write stories from now on... Happy?

I am happy for your readers… bye

Today

Yeh Tumhari Meri Baathein, Hamesha Yuhin Chalti Rahe
Yeh Hamari Mulakate, Hamesha Yuhin Chalti Rahe

Oh... you have again started to sing this song? Seem to be very happy today!

……

Boss, I am talking to you….

Oh yah... sorry… what?

I think like selective memory, you have selective hearing... you would only like to hear what you want to hear…

No... Actually I am busy with my next story…

What? Did I hear it properly?

Yes Mam, you did… I am coming up with the next one…

I remember someone saying to me yesterday that he can never say no to me…

I still keep up with that word… but this is something I couldn’t resist and after all there is no damage done to you even if I break it, as you anyway not going to read my stories…

Yes that is something I will fulfill with utmost sincerity..

I have never seen such a person like you who always dampen my spirits...

Spirits-ah? I thought you are a living being…

It is very difficult to talk to you these days…

Ok, back to the topic… how come you started writing a story today, when you agreed to my pleading yesterday…?

The world is not really cruel like you TL; some good souls do live…

First you talked about spirit, now you talk about soul… I’m afraid, are you alright?

Yeah, yeah… I’m... still the side effects of being your friend is not evident in me…

Ok, I’m going…

Ok, ok… thanda thanda cool cool… you don’t want to know the reason why I have started writing the story...

No, I don’t want…

I always wonder, why you don’t have any kind of interest to know anything about me… even the slightest curiosity that people generally have too is missing…

The answer is very simple… you are boring…

I’m telling you… I have never seen a person as discouraging as you…

Ok, I’ve work to do… if you have to say something, be quick…

You are very cruel yaar… ok, actually I got a comment in my blog yesterday night which made me to change my decision…

Comment in your blog-ah? What was it?

See, see... You also have curiosity…

Boss, if you want to tell, you tell, otherwise, I’m going to work, bye…

Wait, wait! I won’t get sleep if I don’t tell this to ...you… listen & then go... you said nah... my stories are stupid & crap, but not all think so…

Is it?

Yeah… wait... let me just copy paste her comment…

“Hi DT… I’m a regular reader of your blog, particularly all your stories. I have to admit that your stories are highly fascinating & I can relate myself to most of the instances that come across in them. They make me feel so connected and you have a knack of connecting human emotions woven nicely in a form of story. I wonder if some of them are of your own experience. Whatever it may be they are enchanting. I notice you have stopped writing stories for some time. While I don’t know the reason thereof (may be I would know that one day as one your story... lol), I really wish you could soon come back with a bang…

- Anonymous

Hmm…not bad… by the way, there is no name mentioned, so how are you so sure that the comment has come from a girl?

Simple… With the emotions expressed in the comment… not only that… usually my stories go well only with girl’s audience… I mean the typical girl’s audience; not scientifically uploaded & technically equipped brains like yours…

I think I should not have asked this question… but I do have one more question…

What?

You said you would be writing stories only when you are in pensive mood or whatever, but now you are in good mood but how come you are actually writing one…

Good question.. I also do write stories, when I actually want to bring out some emotions… this is the only medium where I can share or let out… sometimes even to say one single line ..Say for e.g.. “I don’t like to see your seat empty even for a second when I’m in the office”... to say this to you, I can actually create a fantasy story just to write this single point… did you get that?

I’m not wrong earlier when I said your stories were real crap & stupid… you be happy with your anonymous comment & your stupid stories…

(Phone rings)

OK, you carry on with your stupid story… I’m going out, got a call…

Yes soma, how are you?

I am fine yaar, by the way as you requested over night, I have put that comments on DT Blog as an Anonymous user...

Yah, thank you… I am aware of that...

Oh good, did you check that…

No, I didn’t but I came to know from Venkat just now…

Did you tell him that you were the one who want to put that…?

No, why should I... I don’t want to…

Why?

It’s like that only……

Ok, atleast tell me why you want him to write stories... I have also read few... all stupid stuff…

Eh no... Don’t tell like that... those are nice... different thought... good flow... not everywhere you can find such kind of stories put into paper…

Oh I see, did you tell this to him…

Never…

Hmm…why?

It's like that only…… Moreover this is the only time; he uses his brain… so I don’t want to stop him from that…

Haha… so you think your comment would help him to write stories once again…

Definitely… there is no doubt about that....he would start once again…

OK, why you asked me to write that comment, instead of doing that yourself…

To maintain the record…

Which record…?

Not to put any comments in his blog even once… hahaha

Hahaha…

(A friend is the one who criticize you upfront and praises you from back…)

Concern!

Q:I am concerned about my friend’s drinking habits.

Osho: “Don’t think about anything that concerns others.

“And that’s what you go on thinking. Ninety-nine percent of the things that you think about concern others. Drop them — drop them immediately!

“Your life is short, and your life is slipping out of your fingers. Each moment you are less, each day you are less, and each day you are less alive and more dead! Each birthday is a death day; one more year is gone from your hands. Be a little more intelligent.

“Do not think about anything that concerns others. Train first against the defilement that is greatest.

“Gurdjieff used to say to his disciples — the first thing, the very very first thing, “Find out what your greatest characteristic is, your greatest undoing, your central characteristic of unconsciousness.” Each one’s is different. Somebody is sex-obsessed. In a country like India, where for centuries sex has been repressed, that has become almost a universal characteristic; everybody is obsessed with sex. Somebody is obsessed with anger, and somebody else is obsessed with greed. You have to watch which is your basic obsession.

“So first find the main characteristic upon which your whole ego edifice rests. And then be constantly aware of it, because it can exist only if you are unaware. It is burnt in the fire of awareness automatically.

“And remember, remember always, that you are not to cultivate the opposite of it. Otherwise, what happens is a person becomes aware that, ‘My obsession is anger, so what should I do? I should cultivate compassion.’ ‘My obsession is sex, so what should I do? I should practice brahmacharya, celibacy.’

“People move from one thing to the opposite. That is not the way of transformation. It is the same pendulum, moving from left to right, from right to left. And that’s how your life has been moving for centuries; it is the same pendulum.

“The pendulum has to be stopped in the middle. And that’s the miracle of awareness. Just be aware that, ‘This is my chief pitfall, this is the place where I stumble again and again, this is the root of my unconsciousness.’

“Don’t try to cultivate the opposite of it, but pour your whole awareness into it. Create a great bonfire of awareness, and it will be burned. And then the pendulum stops in the middle.

“And with the stopping of the pendulum, time stops. You suddenly enter into the world of timelessness, deathlessness, eternity.”