எண்ணங்கள் I

Enaku indha unarvu endrum varaadhu endru allava ithanai naalai nenaithu kondu irudhen. Anaal vandhu vitadhu. Enakullae irundha ayiram ayiram irumbu suvargalai udaithu kondu indru vandhu vittadhu. Eppadi vandhadu? Endru vandhadu? Naan ennai marandha nilayil vandhu vittadha? Ethanai naal idhu pondra unarvugalai mathikadha naan eppadi itharku indru adimai annaen?

Kaadhal. Kaadhal. Kaadhal. Aha indru indha varthai Aen ippadi inikiradhu. Aen indru ennaiyum ariyamal en idhalgal punagaikindrana? Aen indru enaku vaanil parapadhu pondra oru unarvu? Indru kothamalli rasam kuda allava inithadu? Oho idhu dhaan kaadhal ho? Idhu enna ennul erpatu irukum mattram? Bodhai utkondavarin nilai pol allava nan ippolundhu unarkindraen, Ularukindraen!

Idhu enaku erpatu irukum oru pudhu vidha anubhavam. Ithanai naal idhai ariyamal irudhuvittaenae? Indha unarvu enaku ethanai sandhosam tharum endru therindu irundhal nan Andrae Shyamin kadhaluku Sari endru solli irupaenae?

Shyam, Shyam, Shyam, aha.. indha varthaiyai indru evalavu murai solli irupaen? Shyam…… Ini idhu enaku oru mandira sol! Indha mandiram ennai ahtipadaikum endru naan enni irupaena? Indha varthai enakul oru pudhu vidha unarchigalai tharum endru nambi irupaena?

Nan kaadhal vaya patu irukiren. Idhai nan indru othukolvadhil dhan ethanai anandham. Idhu pol oru anandham itharku mun ennul vandhu irukiradha? Netru iravu muluvadhum thookam illamal irundhum kuda indru naan urchagamaga irukiraenae eppadi? Idhu dhan kaadhal endra unarvin magimaiyo?

Shyam, indru unnai sandhithu en kadhalai oppu kolla pogiren. Atharku nee dhan evalavu koduthu veithiruka vendum. Indha kotaiyai saithavan endra perumai unnaku allava serum! Nee ethanai murai muyandru irupai en oru vili parvai kaga. Anaal enaku dhan unmel kavanam illamal poitru.

Nan Yen seiven? Naan valarndha murai appadi. Netruvarai Kaadhal endra varthaiku artham thedadhaval naan. Adhanalayae Nee ennai kadhalikirai endra sandhegam endrum erpattadu kedaiyadhu. Naan, en padipu, En Veedu endru ennai patriyae nenaithu irundha velaiyil indru en parvaiyai unadhu pakkam thirupi irukirai…nee dhan andha kalabha kadhalano?

Kaloori valkaiyin andha kadaisi naalil allava nee un kadhalai enaku sonnai. Etharku irandu andugalaga kadhalithu kalooriyin kadaisi naalil un kaadhalai sonnai? Unakum Idhayam padathil varum muralikum ethanai ottrumai? Oru velai nee avarin theevira rasigana? Paithiyamae, nee alla, naan dhan. Andru un kadhalai enna vendru ariyamal, maruthu allava unnai vali anupi veithen.

Nee evalavu norungi poi irupai? Ethanai murai ennai nenaithu aludhurupai? Enaku idharkana saaba vimochanam kedaikum naal indru vandhu vittadhu! Unnai paravasa padutha nan indru unnidam varugiren Shyam!

Nee yosikalam andru pirakadha kaadhal indru malardhadu eppadi endru? Ada muttalae adhu dhan kaadhal endru naan solli dhan unaku puriya veika vendum? Andru Unnul malardha kadhal enakul vara ithanai kala thamadhamagi irukiradhu? Adharku karanam enna vendru theda virumbavillai!

Oru velai nee ennai thalli sendradhalae erpatta mattramah? Theriyavillai. Naan ennai patri yosithadhai vida nee ennai patri yosicha vinadigalae athigam. Oru velai andha nenaivalaigalin thakama? Aen evalavu thamadhamaga vandhu serdhadu ennidam? Pavam adhu enna seiyum? Kaadhal endra melliya poo pondra nenaivalaigal en irumbu kotaiyai thagarka ithanai naal agi vitadhu polum? Anaalum adharku dhan ethanai vali irundhirukum ennai thagarka?

Oh Nenaivugalae Ennai manniyungal, naan unarvum unarchiyum illadhu irundhu vittaen. Kaadhalin suvaiyai paruga arugadhai attravalagi irundhu vittaen. Ennai manniyungal. Idharku parigaramaga en kaadhal nenaivalaigalai parisaka tharukiren. Adhai etru kol shyam.

Indru unnidam naan varugiren. Ennai pathiramaga parthu kolla vendiyadhu un porupu. Naan en kaadhalai solla varthai varamal thavithal ennai melum thavika vidamal ennai alli anaika vendiyadhu unnudaiya kadamai. Un Parisam pada nan ingu thavikiren. Ennai idhu pol ulara veithu vitayae shyam? Enna! unnai kopikiraen endru parthaya…? Idhu allavo chella kopam? Idharku dhan nee ethanai murai muyandru thothurupai?

Nee ethanai naal ennai parkamal vaadi irupai endru enaku theriyum. Anaal indha pirivuku dhan nee nandri solla vendum. Indha pirivu allava ennai unnidam serthadu. Kaloori mudindha dinathilirundhu indru varai ennul erpatta matrangal ethanai ethanai?

Edho ondru ennai vitu poi vittadhu endru therindhum adhu edhu vendru theriyamal ethanai naal pedhaiyai thirindha tharunagal ethanai ethanai? Anaal netru dhaan unardhen ennai unnidam endro koduthu vittaen endru. Adhu theriyamal dhaan iravil thookam varamal ingum angumaga oru peyai pol alaidhu kondu irudhen ithanai nalaga.

Unaku en nandri. Ennai kadhalithaduku. Ennul indha unarvai erpaduthiyadharku. Ennai idhu pola pesa veithadharku. Idhu ellam nenaika nenaika evalavu inbam. Idhu pol endrum iruka seiya vendiyadhu un velai. Unnul pugundhu ennai unaku arpanipadhae ini En sevai! Idho varugiren Shyam unnidam. Ennai Kaadhalin pudhiya athyayathuku eduthu Chel!

Eh Vidya enna panrae anga ulla? Indha pakkam vaa konjam velai iruku!

Onnum illah ma, Diary eludhi kittu irundhaen, Idho vandhutaen!

(to be contd..)

5 comments:

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Delhi_tamilan said...

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